her myspace

i was checking out my sister's myspace page. that beautiful girl is really getting good at creativity and graphic design in general. she is so talented in that she's such a creative writer with her poetry from time to time and has the gift of being able to say anything or tell anyone exactly what she thinks. she doesn't hold back.

her page has a section for her "shouts" to some people in her life... it begins with her best friend, then to her friend/ex-boyfriend (who she "can't ever stop loving"), then to our 'rents, then to some guy friend that i dont know... and i was thinking, gee, arent i a part of your life, too? ;)
and then finally at the bottom of her "shouts":
SARA:
Sara is my sissy. She's a big hero in my life because she's like "strict" gaurdian angel. Whenever she tells me bout something... she may think im just blowing off what she says, but dont worry, i truly think about things. I know this lady's got my back. She's showin' me that "Christian Life" Love you sis. =]

she makes me smile.

i spent way too much time lately trying to make something out of absolutely NOTHING. i was too blind to see that i wasn't good enough which kinda sorta really hurts but it's my fault for thinking otherwise.

i'm feeling bitter right now which i hope goes away because i don't want that in my heart at all.

however, i just found this passage which is an amazing reminder :)

This is the way God put it:

"They found grace out in the desert,
these people who survived the killing.
Israel, out looking for a place to rest,
met God out looking for them!"
God told them, "I've never quit loving you and never will.
Expect love, love, and more love!
And so now I'll start over with you and build you up again,
dear virgin Israel.
You'll resume your singing,
grabbing tambourines and joining the dance.
You'll go back to your old work of planting vineyards
on the Samaritan hillsides,
And sit back and enjoy the fruit—
oh, how you'll enjoy those harvests!
The time's coming when watchmen will call out
from the hilltops of Ephraim:
'On your feet! Let's go to Zion,
go to meet our God!'"

Jeremiah 31:3