bird

seriously..

everything

He has been so faithful and it has really been tugging at my heartstrings to show that I'm giving everything I am to Him. I'm being baptized on Saturday. as a baby, I wasn't able to dedicate my life to God through baptism and as a 13 year old, I didn't fully comprehend what it meant to affirm my faith and live for Christ through confirmation.

if I was to sit down and write a letter to God today, I like to think it would look like this...



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Listening to: Skillet - Better Than Drugs

jump

sometime after i finished responding to an email from a complete stranger a moment ago, did it set in that i am a very different person that I was a year ago.

I wouldn't be anywhere close to where i am right now spiritually and emotionally if I hadn't taken these plunges in the last year. it all began with deciding to join a bible study with these four completely beautiful women sometime last September.

soon after (without going into any detail) randomly drove 10 hours to hang out in the U.P. with what would become amazing new friends, ended my 4-year relationship for good, randomly camped a spectacular weekend on Lake Michigan with Campus Crusaders I didn't know, flew to Mexico with the church, changed my major for the millionth and final time, and here I am packing my bags to drive the 10 hours to the U.P. for the fourth time this year. I don't know the person I am driving up there with other than that he is a friend of a friend but I'm sure the company will be awesome as everything else that I've trusted into God's hands so far have been.

oh, i'm real excited for this long weekend! words cannot describe how much I love autumn. it will be gorgeous! pictures to come for sure. do me a favor and everyone go buy a gourd this weekend. FACT: the gourd is as enjoyable as a pumpkin, but completely underrated.

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Listening to: The Higher - Weapons Wired

have fun with that

it was sooo good to see a wonderful friend today! we were going to live together this semester but she recently became engaged to my other great friend and theyre living an hour or two away. i miss those two like crazy :) aaand she asked if i'd be a bridesmaid in her wedding! my first non-flower girl role--yes!

completely unrelated but... now i'm pretty discouraged and disappointed. it just sucks that my plans never seem to be congruent with God's. inadequacy feels far too familiar these days.

it's hard letting go of my wants.

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Listening to: Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest