basically

BASICALLY... brittany fila is the most amazing person i have ever encountered and she is amaaazing. randomly drove into e.l. after work not knowing where i was going at all... short story made shorter: i love talking to her and of COURSE to all of the other gorgeous women God decided to throw into my life lately. wow.
i have grown so much over the past couple of weeks and normally it would kinda freak me out that so much has happened, the circumstances, etc. but... i'm strangely at peace with where i am even though it feels like i'm traveling 29837420 mph and have so much on this plate. very chillax, but only through God's everlasting encouragement and grace has this happened.
i've closed a lot of doors and opened plenty new ones very recently. i have been able to use time to be reflective and think about who has been in my life. and the biggest struggle for me was trying not to blame those who i felt have sinned against me with words and shut me out. but i've been able to recognize (through a greaaaat network of beautiful people) that i can't set the same expectations for those not in faith as i can for those in faith--which corresponds exactly with the trend i see right now and it's crazy. on the flip side, building relationships with certain individuals today was awesome and unexpected on both sides--but much needed. :) my thoughts just sort of ramble together, ifeellikeimightaswelltypelikethis.

Romans 5:3-5